Tagged - Sort of

I was reading Lindsay's blog and she tagged whoever reads her blog to do this...so I guess I'm tagged...and since I don't have anything else to do or write about right now, I'll give it a go...

8 TV shows I watch:
1. Mickey Mouse Clubhouse - would gladly give this up forever
2. Criminal Minds - but it freaks me out sometimes
3. Top Chef
4. Will and Grace reruns on lifetime
5. Intervention
6. The Office
7. sometimes Reba (to my husband's annoyance)
8. Paula Dean - but I never make her stuff, I just like how she says yall

8 Favorite Restaurants:
1. Lupe Tortilla
2. Collina's
3. Hungry's
4. Ruggles
5. Pei Wei
6. Freebirds
7. Taste of Texas
8. Pappasitos

8 Things that happened to me today:
1. Woke up and made banana muffins
2. Drove to grandparents house for a visit
3. Almost got run into on the freeway
4. Got a random craving for an egg salad sandwich (pregnancy??)
5. Almost got run into again on the freeway
6. Paid an exterminator to deal with an issue of rats in our attic. Sick.
7. Wrapped family presents
8. Watched almost 3 hours of worthless TV after putting Lily down for the night

8 Things I look forward to:
1. Being able to bend at the waist again
2. New baby in our family
3. Christmas presents next week with Lily and Justin
4. the day we can afford a maid - what, too much to ask??
5. Cold weather...hopefully!
6. a date night with Justin
7. a time when whipping up a fabulous meal is like second nature
8. sleeping in on a Saturday morning

8 Things I wish for:
1. Lily and her brother to genuinely love the Lord
2. a new (or used!) car so we are no longer a one-car family
3. more time to be still and think
4. a heart that is more trusting, less anxious
5. parenting wisdom
6. a comfy glider for baby numero dos
7. new bedding and some grown up bedroom furniture
8. a vacation

8 People I'm tagging to do this...um...feel free to do it...I like to read the answers

My greatest fear...

Okay, not my greatest but a pretty big one. This is old but it cracks me up!

Rambling thoughts from my drive to work...

It's the big question floating around right now: What do you want? Throughout the day, I can think of little things that I'd like to have but don't just go out and buy for myself...and I can think of plenty of higher-priced items that are on my wishlist...new furniture, all the essentials for Lily's big girl room, essentials for baby boy, fresh towels and linens - the nice kind...and even though having those things would make me feel good temporarily, that's not what I want either.

So today, I was driving to work with my A/C on because it's 75 degrees here and that's hot for the pregnant girl. I was sitting in traffic, not having a good hair/makeup/outfit day, and listening to KSBJ dj's talk about what you can and can't eat at a Christmas party to watch your weight. (They suggested eating only the whites of deviled eggs because that's only 17 calories - seriously?? what's the fun in that? They also suggested proscuitto wrapped melon balls. gross.)

Anyway, I was about to change the station out of irriation, but then the song O Come O Come Emmanuel came on. It was beautiful...simple, guitar and a sweet voice...not jazzed up or re-done...just the words. And I started feeling a sense of longing - This is not what I was created for...traffic, stress about my hair and what I'm eating, guilt about leaving my daughter with someone else 3 days a week, worry about what we will buy for whom and how to not go into debt doing it, pity for myself about the fact that I'm not all crafty and artsy and making gifts for people while my home is beautifully decorated with Christmas cheer and smelling of cinnamon and peppermint...you get the point...

Jesus came in obedience to the will of his Father. He came that we might have life...and He came quietly, with love and reconciliation as part of His mission. He came to set free the captives...to restore beauty and wholeness...to make things how they were intended to be...and so I'm pleading with Him to help me to focus on those things. To whisper to my heart in my frazzled moments - "this is not your home." And I am asking Him to help me to worship Him with all my heart, regardless of whether or not I get what I think I want. He knows what I need...and will graciously provide it.