my pumpkin

This is my precious pumpkin. For some reason, today my heart has been especially tender towards her. She has no idea, but she is teaching me so much about myself - much of it things that I wish I could deny...that I'm selfish, or fearful, or prideful...but she also is teaching me what it means to love deeply and without restraint. I can't really remember what my life was like before her, although she's only been here for 9 months...and I thank God for her because he is using her to show me a glimpse of how he loves me, one of HIS children.

My heart has also been filled with gratitude, as I know so many children came into the world at the same time as she did, but to completely different families and circumstances...many of them in conditions that are heartbreaking. My prayer is that as we raise Lily, that she will have a heart of compassion and mercy...that she will be heavenly-minded...that he will use her to bless others...